aaaaaand, we're off!

in the midst of transition feels like an odd time to start any sort of chronicle. it seems like i would want a good, clean beginning. but i'm feeling compelled to start a blog now, and so i'm starting one now, while i'm surrounded by boxes, impatience, and anticipation. i think its the anticipation that's driving me to do this. my imagination is filling with projects to start on once we get there. and once we get there. which sounds like an excuse because it is one.

the past two years i've been living in paducah, kentucky. a small town in the middle of the u.s. a town known for it's barbeque, quilting, and nuclear plant. there was a reason for moving here. a very reasonable seeming plan. we were going to live here and take a break from the dramas of city life. we were going to get out of credit debt and save for a house in atlanta, my hometown. two years later it may have been worth it after all as we're currently under contract on a house that is more perfect than we could have dreamed of for a first home. (due in no small part to the awful state of the housing market and subsequent drop in housing prices) living here has been challenging in ways i didn't expect and heartening in ways i couldn't have imagined. but i'm very ready to move on. in a way i feel like i've been on a reality tv show and now it's time to actually get back to reality. to a lifestyle that is not only more comfortable for me, but that actually reflects who i am. i guess that gets to the heart of what has disturbed me about living in a small middle america city. i feel like the change in lifestyle has changed my identity. or at the very least like i'm wearing some sort of puppet costume over the "real me." and this puppet costume has eaten more fast food in the last 2 years than i've eaten in all my 28 years put together. i crave a lifestyle that includes a burrito stand. this puppet took a job for a system that i don't believe in. and this puppet is much quieter about being queer than i am. forthcoming, yes, but quieter.

so i teeter on the edge of each calendar day hoping that this is the day our contract will go through. and next the day we close. and then turning my heart toward whatever day it is we move. and then the real start of seeking out new inspirations, new restaurants, new images, papers, and a press.